as well as;
black wedges from oak
dkny pure cardigan in grey or black
modern japanese house by naomi pollock
compact houses: architecture for the environment by cristina del valle
space: japanese design solutions by michael freeman
eco : an essential sourcebook for environmentally friendly design and decoration by e. wilhide
ecocities: rebuilding cities in balance with nature by richard register
ecodesign: a manual for ecological design by: ken yeang
lately i am hating my life. i can't figure out what to do with it. i'm so stressed because i don't like the direction it's leading. why am i so fickle? there's this small lump of tiny regret that is growing in my chest. i don't know if i want to move back home anymore. i realized that this past weekend. it has nothing to do with my parents because i so want to be near them, but everything to do with everything else about that city. and i'm stressing because i don't know what i am going to major in. i thought i had put art school out of mind because i don't want to do photography anymore but now it's creeping back. i saw that california college of the arts has a visual studies major and that really really really interests me. except that they require a portfolio and i don't have one! i don't even know what i would put in it. i'm majoring in french right now but what am i going to do with a degree in french? i do not want to teach at all. i realized that the only reason why i am majoring in french is to take all those wonderful classes that interest me. the language courses and the literature and film classes but i can do that by myself. i already do. i already read all of those and i learn from them. why do i need to take classes for them when i do it already myself? what i've always wanted to do is work for an arts/culture/design magazine. climb my way up to art director. that's what i see myself doing. and i think going to art school for visual studies will help me. it just worries me about the portfolio. if i don't get accepted there as a transfer student, i don't know what i'm going to do. am i going to continue with my french major? should i apply to berkeley still? i think about this all the time and i get this feeling of dread. i'm scared i won't be able to do what i want to do. i'm still not going to transfer anywhere until another year or year and a half so i have time, but in a way i don't. i have to figure out what i'm going to do because majoring in french and majoring in visual studies are two completely different things and i have to prepare for only one of them with the classes i'll be taking. thank goodness i am going to san francisco in june. i can go visit the schools and talk to an admissions counselor and ask questions and i'm sure this will help me decide what to do. if all else fails, there is culinary school!
oh and yesterday someone hacked into my livejournal! luckily i caught them while they were in here! they knew my email address password and changed the password to my journal. it took me awhile to be able to change my password so they couldn't get back in but every time i changed my email address, they changed it back! until finally i was fast enough and was able to change my password. they also deleted my communities. but that is all. the person is from the valley! i know this because i have their ip address. why are people so creepy and wierd?!?!